24 January 2011

Before I Die, I'm Traveling to 1953

Founded in 1953 by Lawrence Ferlinghetti

Riprap
Gary Snyder

Lay down these words
Before your mind like rocks.
             placed solid, by hands  
In choice of place, set
Before the body of the mind
             in space and time:
Solidity of bark, leaf, or wall
             riprap of things:
Cobble of milky way,
             straying planets,
These poems, people,
             lost ponies with
Dragging saddles—
             and rocky sure-foot trails.  
The worlds like an endless  
             four-dimensional
Game of Go.
             ants and pebbles
In the thin loam, each rock a word  
             a creek-washed stone
Granite: ingrained
             with torment of fire and weight  
Crystal and sediment linked hot
             all change, in thoughts,  
As well as things.
 ___________
As well as things:
Can go (indicative), are they (participle) going.

I take the subjunctive to say things
Might go
In any direction,
But soon will hit the sun.
23 January 2011

I'm a Rocket, Man.

This is the pack I've ran with the longest; my sister, my Azeri, and my Nerdy-Whirl.  We were formed in Senior year Physics class, sitting at the front table because of Aydan's terrible eyesight.  She's a beautiful foreign perfectionist, prone to spells in which she threatens to suicide.  We never believe her.  Heather, I went to kindergarten with her, then we met back up in high school.  She has this wonderfully fanciful side to her, with all of her math and science smarts, and she is one of the most fearless people I know.  Hypnosis?  She's got the book.  Vivid dreaming?  Yeah, she's tried it.  Oh, and spider season?  That might be her favorite time of year.  Kylie is my twin, the one who always gets my jokes.

We've stood in the rain together, singing and dancing, and looking at the town lights from Heather's hill.  We share Jane Austen and Charlotte Bronte, the characters acting as stand-ins for Aydan and myself, the ones who haven't had a boyfriend.  And now I use them as substitutes for Heather and Aydan, gone to different colleges.  When Heath is in town, we always pick right back up where we left off, going out for coffee and talking about every little thing.  In fact, Heather has her own blog, still with that new blog smell, that I check religiously (http://thorachu.tumblr.com/).  Aydan, she has my heart with her in Dubai, even though we don't get to talk much.  Before she left Ontario to fly back to Azerbaijan, we all went to the mall.  Aydan was close to a melt down,  needing a new carry on bag, and not being able to find one.  One of my favorite memories is picking out her bag with her, just the two of us.


So, these are my friends.  My dear, dear friends.  Last year, first college year, I wrote a poem for Aydan in my Creative Writing class.  A little cheesy?  Why, yes.  But she liked it.  

To Aydan--
sweet friend

I’ve missed your lovely face smiling
and round, your dark hair lightening my moods.
my hand is empty

without yours.
Until you return, the ache
will keep, fresh and cold in the ice box,

shoved deep behind
cartons of double fudge
and cookie dough.

I stand in the rain talking
to your empty form as
my dark hair soaks

and clings. my teeth chatter
and gossip, describe,
worry the beads of our life.

I picture you reading my
damp spotted letter in a red sun
dress at a window warm and beaming. 

I do not mean to make
you sad. Laugh so that I may
hear you

six thousand eighty one miles away.
21 January 2011

There We Are. Where Are We?

I make films.  And try to write, things like poetry, short stories, novellas.  Much of what I write I tends to be at least semi autobiographical, standing strongly on Modernists and Beats.  I like donuts, a lot.

My sister has a blog, Sundried Sundries, where she is nearing the end of a 30 Day Challenge.  Rather than reiterating the title, I prefer to refer to this journey as The "There We Are; Where Are We?" Challenge, borrowing a quote from the film The Extra Man.  With three more facts about myself, Day One of the Challenge will be complete.  Speaking of The Extra Man, that odd type of film is one of creative aspirations.  Similarly, I aim to become proficient in Koine Greek.  And just once, I would like to be really proud of my own accomplishments. 

So, there we are.  Ten facts about me, and finished with day one. 

Where are we?
17 January 2011

On Studying Greek by the Light of the Silvery Moon

Sister:  Why did we skip the first part of Mark?
Me: Maybe it was boring.
Sister: I think Jesus just called "douche" on you.